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I long to see Christ formed in me and in those around me. Spiritual formation is my passion. My training was under Dallas Willard at the Renovare Spiritual Formation Institute. One of my regular prayers is this: "This day be within and without me, lowly and meek, yet all powerful. Be in the heart of each to whom I speak, and in the mouth of each who speaks unto me."

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Thursday, October 20, 2011

The Spirit of the Gospel is Good News

Devotional Classics, Francis of Assisi, Excerpts from The Little Flowers of St. Francis
"[God] wants you to go about the world preaching, because God did not call you for yourself alone but also for the salvation of others."  And then the hand of the Lord came over St. Francis.  As soon as he heard this answer and thereby knew the will of Christ, he got to his feet, all aflame with divine power and said to Brother Masseo with great fervor: "So let's go - in the name of the Lord!"
He preached so fervently that all the men and women of the village, as a result of his sermon and the miracle of the swallows, in their great devotion wanted to follow him and abandon the village.  But St. Francis did not let them, saying to them: "Don't be in a hurry and don't leave, for I will arrange what you should do for the salvation of your souls." (pp. 296-297)
How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!” (Romans 10:14-15)
Sharing the message of salvation is at the heart of having faith in God.  What else could the desire of Christ be other than "God did not call you for yourself alone but also for the salvation of others."  The God who sent his Word to us as Jesus would have us withhold our own words from others.  The God who spoke to us out of love, joy, and peace would not have us be silent, but also have the love, joy, and peace of sharing his love and presence through the message of grace.

When such a great joy is made into a burden, I cannot but think of Jesus words to the Pharisees about how they search the world and make a convert twice the son of hell that they are themselves (Matthew 23).  What better way to silence the joy of the message than take the joy out of it?  And the peace and the love?  The gospel preached in such a spirit would drive people away and make disciples afraid to share it because of the such false gospels.

I think of people who go around telling people that God hates them and that they will go to hell.  No doubt God hates sin.  No doubt that hell is real.  But is this good news?  The gospel is a story of deliverance.  God has made a way for deliverance from our sins and hell.  Jesus shows us that there is a way to talk about sin and hell with great love and compassion.  Preaching and sharing the good news is much more than information, it is using the words to save and comfort and make whole rather than condemn, attack, and skewer people.  The spirit of the words is at least as important as the words themselves.

I love Francis' humility.  When people wanted to up and follow him, he told them to stay and not hurry.  The message of grace is not that we have to leave our places, but our ways.  We do not have to hurry to God, but remain with him as we find him.  We are tempted to follow the messenger rather than the message.  Francis saw this tendency and told the people to remain, knowing that, like Jacob, each person could say, "God is in this place and I did not know it!"

The gospel is simply the Good News.  How can I do anything but share?  The only way I might have trouble sharing is if this good news has somehow become bad or not "news."  Badness comes from how I and other people mistreat the message by making it mean.  It becomes boring old news when I fail to live and believe it, leaving it as a used and empty formula.

Lord, may I have the joy of Francis.  May I simply get up in response to your will and word and say, "Let's go!"  May I have the humility of Francis who saw that if the gospel must be lived where each person is to be real news and not old news.  Forgive me when I make the gospel anything but Good News.  Amen.


Sharing the gospel deepens joy in the gospel.  Living out the deliverance of God in my life keeps the gospel fresh.  The greatest deterrent to sharing is the bad news that masquerades as the gospel.  The life and reality of the gospel can only live through my own continual practice and  surrender to God saving me from my sins and former way of life.  It is the spirit of the gospel that makes it good and makes it real.  Mistreating the gospel makes it mean and boring.

Friday, October 14, 2011

The Gospel and Whole Life

Devotional Classics, Sadhu Sundar Singh, Excerpts from With and Without Christ
Where the tongue is lacking, life, through action, reveals the reality.  As St Paul says: "The letter kills, but the Spirit gives life" (2 Cor. 3:6, NIV) 
Almost everyone has an inner capacity - some more, some less - to sense spiritual truths without knowing how they have attuned them.  As someone has said: "They know without knowing how." 
The will to live, which is present in every person, is an impulse urging us to carry life to its perfection, that is, to that state in which the purpose of God for each life will be fulfilled, so that we will be eternally happy in Him.  On the other hand, to those who are without the experience of the joyful inner life in God, life is a burden. 
The inner life cannot be freed by changing the place or by killing the body, but only by putting off the "old person" and putting on the new person, thus passing from death to life. 
A scientist had a bird in his hand.  He saw that it had life, and, wanting to find out what part of the bird's body the life was, he began dissecting the bird.  The result was that the very life of which he was in search disappeared mysteriously.  Those who try to understand the inner life merely intellectually will meet with a similar failure.  The life for which they are looking will vanish in the analysis. 
In comparison with this big world, the human heart is only a small thing.  Though the world is so large, it is unable to satisfy this tiny heart.  Our ever growing soul and its capacities can only be satisfied in the infinite God. 
After fulfilling its purpose for some time as the instrument of the soul for its work in the world, the body begins to refuse, through weakness and old age, to go along with the spirit any further.  This is because the body cannot keep pace with the eternally growing soul. . . .  To die in the Lord does not mean death, for the Lord is "the Lord of the living and not the dead,"  but to die in the Lord means oneself in his work.
The same breath is blown into the flute, cornet, and bagpipe, but different music is produced according to the different instruments.  In the same way the one Spirit works in us, God's children, but different results are produced, and God is glorified through them according to each one's temperament and personality. (pp. 288-291)
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us, and we have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, full of grace and truth.  (John 1:14) 
One of the remarkable things about the gospel is that it speaks to my whole life.  It does not dominate my life like an oppressive religion would.  It does not control my life like cult would.  It does not remain in some strange little category like "my faith" or "my religious practice" would.  It influences and overflows into all parts of my life and changes them all by its truth and power.

Because of this all-encompassing nature, this good news defies complete explanation.  It is not irrational, but is so expansive that it cannot be contained by explanation.  In this way, the "tongue is lacking" and only life as a whole "reveals the reality."  In Christian terms, this is Incarnation, the Word made flesh.  Jesus himself is the only true Incarnation, but now has passed that on to his Body, the Church, in this present age.  Although imperfect in so many ways, the present Incarnation still reveals the reality through the life within it.

About this gospel, people "know without knowing" about its truth, so that it causes the reaction for or against Jesus as Lord.  Just as a baby has the reflex to grab what is placed in its hand, people start with the desire to survive.  Just as the reflex leaves the baby's hand as it grows and is replaced by conscious control, so the will to live grows in the light of the gospel as my purpose is realized and consciously sought after.  That purpose is Christ being all and in all, not as an undifferentiated pool of life, but as a family of kindred spirits seeking the goodness of God and his life together in manifold ways.

This life that the gospel gives is not located somewhere physically where it can be measured or identified.  Nor is it a life that can be explained fully by what is seen and experienced in this world, but transcends it as surely as my soul will outlast everything I see and only be satisfied with the infinite glory of God.  The life that the gospel creates will outlast and tire out this temporary body and only be contained in a glorified body made for the glorified spirit, which is one that is dead to everything but God's work and God's ways.  This life from the gospel can sound and look so different in the lives of so many people, but it is has the same breath and vitality that is unmistakably of the Spirit.

Such a message can only be communicated and retained by God himself as Father above, as the Son who teaches and mediates, and as the Spirit who guides and encourages.  Such a message brings about a life fully given to love, wanting what is good in God and for God and for other people.  Without a God who is with us and our lives fully engaged, the message remains lacking as just of the tongue or "merely intellectual."

Lord, Singh expresses a wholeness of the gospel that speaks to life as a whole.  I am encouraged and reminded of that message and how deeply each person needs to hear it and respond to it.  Let me put to death that "old person" so I can find life eternal and joyful with you.  Amen.


So easily does the gospel become a series of words or a list of deeds.  These are so limited and so deadening.  The gospel does not come from me, but surrounds and immerses me.  It is the invitation into the life and influence of God, his kingdom.  It is a new world and the age to come.  I need only talk about life and the gospel comes out since it touches everything.  Even in my disobedience, I show its rightness and necessity.  Only the death of denial can hide its light from myself and others.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Word and Surrender

Devotional Classics, E. Stanley Jones, Excerpts from Conversation
Conversion is a gift and an achievement.  It is the act of a moment and the work of a lifetime.  You cannot attain salvation by disciplines - it is the gift of God.  But you cannot retain it without disciplines.  If you try to attain salvation by disciplines, you will be trying to discipline an unsurrendered self.  You will be sitting on a lid.  The result will be tenseness instead of trust.  "You will wrestle instead of nestle. . . ."  Discipline is the fruit of conversion - not the root. . . .  So we take and try; we obtain and attain.
[Jesus] did three things by habit: (1) "He stood up to read as was his custom" - he read the Word of God by habit.  (2) "He went out into the mountain to pray as was his custom" - he prayed by habit.  (3) "He taught them again as was his custom" - he passed on to others by habit what he had and what he had found. . . .  No converted person can live without those habits at work vitally in his life.
I know two brilliant Christians who come to the daily morning devotions without their Bibles.  They can meditate, they say.  They are both shallow.  For they mediate God to themselves through their own thinking - they become the medium.  They do not go to God direct as they imagine - they go through their own thinking; they become the mediator.
Dr. Howard Atwood Kelley. . . says of reading the Bible, "The Bible vindicates itself because it is such excellent medicine.  It has never failed to cure a single patient if only he took his prescription honestly."  Take the prescription of the Word of God daily.  No Christian is sound who is not scriptural.
When prayer fades out, power fades out.  We are as spiritual as we are prayerful; no more, no less.
It is a law of the mind that that which is not expressed dies.  If you don't share it, you won't have it.
The rule about confessing your sins should be, the circle of confession should be the circle affected by the sin.
Pray for those who have wronged you.  That will be an antidote for resentment and bitterness.  A theological professor keeps a car index of nasty letters he receives and prays for their writers every day.  No wonder his spirit has an extraordinary sweetness.  (pp. 281-285)
In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning.  (John1:1-2)
There are quite a few ways in which I do not take my Bible prescription "honestly."  Jones points some of the big ones out well.  First, I try to read my Bible before I am surrendered to God, before I am converted in some part of my life.  Whatever I might hope to gain from Bible reading will only come when I am submitted to God and the good that he wants rather than my own agendas.

I must surrender my desires not because they are always bad, but because they are meant to align with God and his desires.  Without that surrender, my Bible reading tends to serve rationalizations of my own desires and feelings.  I do not see what God wants to show me, but only what I want to see.  Such reading feeds inner arguments, justifies whatever I happen to be doing, and quenches the love from the Spirit for God and other people.

Insight from the Bible, like conversion itself, is a gift of God.  It cannot be attained through raw effort, but must first be granted in grace.  Effort comes after the gift because effort must work with the gift.  Without that I will be "tossed back and forth by the waves and blown here and there by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming" - starting with myself!  (Ephesians 4:14)  However, without discipline, the gift of the Spirit's illumination will not be retained.

One of the best ways to submit myself to God through the Bible is to develop a habit of reading and study.  Without the habit, I quickly drift off into the reiteration of my own thoughts and feelings which, like manna, are sufficient for one day, but often will not meet the needs of the next.  Also, I am tempted to try to achieve a feeling instead of understanding.  Bursts of understanding bring pleasure, but by habit I do not allow such pleasures to guide my reading and study, but rather a continued choice to seek God through the Bible, whether pleasant or not, "deep" or not, or inspiring or not.

Another way to surrender is to bathe my readings and study in prayer.  Asking and praising, talking and thinking with God must be habitual as well.  Without such prayer, the whole thing of Bible study becomes a bunch of unrelated thoughts that are guided by my worries and lusts rather than my trust and worship.  What I read or study in the Bible needs to be preceded by immersion in God's presence.  What I find and enjoy in the Bible also needs to lead me into prayers of confession, thanksgiving, praise, and quiet.

Finally, reading the Bible leads to teaching and evangelism.  I like Jones' expression that "it is a law of the mind that that which is not expressed dies."  Evangelism is built into devotion to God and the Bible.  "We cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard" the apostles said before the Sanhedrin when told not to speak about Jesus or in his name.  I find this is in contrast to what I have often thought evangelism is.  It is telling what I have seen and heard rather than telling other people what I think they need to know.  It is shared discovery rather than making converts.

In explaining what I have seen and heard through a prayerful reading of the Bible deepens my surrender to God.  I find that although the Bible is right, I can be wrong.  Even though I hear God, I may not always understand what he means.  This calls for walking with God moment by moment, instead of trying to get a kind of knowledge that I can use on my own.  Relying on God to reveal his thoughts through the Bible is helped by receiving it as a gift, making it a habit, bathing it in prayer, and seeking ways to share what I have discovered.

Lord, you sent the Word to us.  You did not keep it to yourself, but because of the love and joy in you, your sent your message, Jesus.  The Bible speaks faithfully of that Word and in many ways it is that Word to me.  Help me to receive it as a gift wit humility and expectation.  Amen.


One way I am learning to submit to God's word is to handle it carefully, physically as well as spiritually.  By bowing my head or holding the Bible in my hands a certain way, I can be reminded of the great truth it contains and the great God it brings me to.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Compassion Is Not Mostly About Feeling Good

Devotional Classics, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Excerpts from Life Together
Christianity means community through Jesus Christ and in Jesus Christ.  No Christian community is more of less than this.
[A Christian] needs his brother solely because of Jesus Christ.  The Christ in his own heart is weaker than the Christ in the word of his brother; his own heart is uncertain, his brother's is sure.  And that also clarifies the goal of all Christian community: they meet one another as bringers of the message of salvation.
Without Christ we should not know God, we could not call upon him, nor come to him.  But without Christ we also could not know our brother, nor could we come to him.  The way is blocked by our own ego.
If, before we could know and wish it, we have been chosen and accepted with the whole Church in Jesus Christ, then we also belong to him in eternity with one another.  We who live here in fellowship with him will one day be with him in eternal fellowship.
The more we received, the more we were able to give; and the more meager our brotherly love, the less were we living by God's mercy and love.
Not what a man is in himself as a Christian, his spirituality and piety, constitutes the basis of our community.  What determines our brotherhood is what that man is by reason of Christ.  Our community with one another consists solely in what Christ has done to both of us. . . .  The more genuine and the deeper our community becomes, the more will everything else between us recede, the more clearly and purely will Jesus Christ and his work become the one and only thing that is vital between us.
This dismisses the clamorous desire for something more.  One who wants more than what Christ has established does not want Christian brotherhood.  He is looking for some extraordinary social experience which he has not found elsewhere; he is bringing muddled and impure desires into Christian brotherhood.  Christian brotherhood is not an ideal which we must realize; it is rather a reality created by God in Christ in which we may participate.  (pp.271-275)
He is our peace. (Ephesians 2:14)
Because of the worship of feeling and desire that I have been exposed to for so long, I am frequently pushed by that "clamorous desire for something more."  It comes into just about every area of my life and brings dissatisfaction and worry in its path.  It eats away at love, joy, and peace.  It continually draws my attention to my pride and my "stomach."

This is no less true as I think about worship services.  Rather than enjoying the peace that Christ has brought and looking for his words and his face in the people I worship with, I am often worried about "looking for some extraordinary experience" or simply embracing indifference to worship and fellowship.  I have been known to say "It doesn't matter" about Christian fellowship from disappointment and even bitterness.

Neither indifference nor the worship of feeling and desire will cross the bridge of fellowship with other disciples.  One dismisses a primary means of God's goodness and grace: other believers.  The other dismisses the reason we gather: seeing Christ and him alone.  Our relationships and fellowship are subordinate to this one good, this hope, this desire: "Jesus Christ and his work [as] the one and only thing that is vital between us."

Yesterday, I aspired to enter the reality of that fellowship rather than trying to create an ideal of what I think fellowship should be.  I sought to pray for others and enjoy what they brought and most of all look for what God was trying to do in our time together.  I spent most of my time inviting God to join us and bathe us in his presence, since nothing we do in itself with bring about the change, the desire, the love, nor the peace that we need.  The songs, the words, the prayers are all empty without our being immersed in God's presence.

And so it also is with compassion.  I find I am easily pulled into thinking that compassion is a lot about what makes me feel good and useful.  I use it as a means of self-satisfaction, so that I can push away a number of unpleasant emotions, like guilt or empathy.  Compassion is not about having an "extraordinary experience."

Like worship, compassion cannot bring me closer to others in itself.  It too needs to be bathed in God's working presence.  Only then can it become what it needs to be for me and others I may help: both a "message of salvation" and a "reality in which we may participate."

Lord, deliver me from compassion that seeks to be a "powerful experience" or the tie that binds me to others.  It is a means for your grace.  It is a place where I may meet you and others who love you.  Let me not overvalue or demean this work, Father.  Amen.


I want this to be a constant reminder to me: "the more we received, the more we were able to give."  A lack of compassion is a lack of reception of God and his work in myself and in others.  I see that with service, I need not only to draw close to him myself, but invite his presence into each situation to do as he wills.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Compassion and Hospitality

Devotional Classics, Catherine of Siena, Excerpts from The Dialogue
At the first stair, lifting the feet of her affections from the earth, [the soul] stripped herself of sin.  At the second she dressed herself in love for virtue.  And at the third stage she tasted peace.
In fact, his divinity is kneaded in the clay of your humanity like one bread.
For he proved his unspeakable love, and the human heart is always drawn by love. . . .  You can hardly resist being drawn by love, unless you foolishly refuse to be drawn.
All virtue draws life from him, nor is there any virtue that has not been tested in him.  So no one can have any life-giving virtue but from him, that is, by following his example and his teaching.
The hostelry [lodging] of holy Church is there to serve the bread of life and blood lest the journeying pilgrims, my creatures, grow weary and faint on the way.
When he says that he is the Way, he is speaking the truth. . . .  He says he is the Truth, and so he is, and whoever follows him goes the way of truth.  And he is Life.  If you follow his truth, you will have the life of grace and never die of hunger, for the Word has himself become your food.
 Although the images seem scattered as I read some pieces from The Dialogue, I am touched by the "earthiness" of her descriptions.  Bread comes up a lot.  Christ himself is like divinity kneaded into the dough of humanity.  The Church is viewed as a lodging where people might come to eat.  Life itself is given through bread, so that none of us will starve.

In all these things, Christ is himself the bread of life.  His deity is what leavens and raises his humanity.  It is perfectly kneaded into a human life and also into all human life through his Spirit.  Our existence need not be flat and hard, but can be light and full of flavor in his presence.

His love draws us into life.  The only way to escape is to refuse.  For life, he gives himself as our sustenance, our bread, our food.  He is the Life in that he keeps us alive through his continued love and grace and wisdom being taken and "eaten" by us.  He grants life; we need only consume what he gives.

He left a place where such feasting happens.  Some hospitality is better than others, but Jesus gives us rest and food when we gather and abide together.  The church is such a place.  There is no other public place that honors Christ directly and gathers in order to worship and serve him.  This is the lodging where we can stay and rest on our journeys.

Compassion is not much else than hospitality:  a welcome, a meal, and a place to rest.  Jesus is all of these things.  Bread, lodging, and other parts of hospitality are the reflections.

Lord, may my hands be full of your goodness so that I might offer hospitality.  May I offer a loving welcome that draws others in, a meal of bread that satisfies the soul, and a lodging where the rest of kindness lives.  In all these things may I reflect you, our true Host and Friend.  Amen.

Compassion suffers when it loses intimacy.  I cannot offer such hospitality at all times, but I would love to find ways of showing compassion in a more intimate, personal way, so that people leave with more than a full belly or a rested body: a comforted soul.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Compassion and Living in Grace

Devotional Classics, John Wesley, Excerpts from Christian Perfection
The first advice I would give to those who have been saved from sin by grace is to watch and pray continually against pride.  For it is pride not only to ascribe what we have to ourselves, but also to think we have what we do not have.
One way to [be clothed with humility] is to own any fault we have.  If you have at any time thought, spoken, or acted wrong, do not refrain from acknowledging it.  Never dream that this will hurt the cause of God - in fact, it will further it.
Also, beware of the daughter of pride: enthusiasm.  By enthusiasm I mean the tendency to hastily ascribe everything to God, supposing dreams and voices and visions to be special revelations that God has given to you. . . .  You are in danger of enthusiasm every time you depart even a little from the Scriptures. . . .  One general inlet to enthusiasm is expecting the end without the means: expecting knowledge, for instance, without searching the Scriptures and consulting other people of God, or expecting spiritual strength without constant prayer and steady watchfulness, or expecting God to bless you without hearing the word of God at every opportunity.
When we take a fresh teaching from the Scriptures to heart, we must not conclude that it is a "new" gift.  We have all of these things when we are justified; all that remains is that we experience them in higher degrees.
Settle in your heart that from this moment on you will aim at nothing more than that love described in the thirteenth chapter of 1 Corinthians.  You can go no higher than this.
Be slow to speak.  It is said, "In a multitude of words sin abounds."  Try not to talk too much, or for a long time.  Not many people can converse profitably beyond an hour's time.
Let the language of your heart sing out with regard to pleasure or pain, riches or poverty, honor or dishonor, "All's alike to me, so I in my Lord may live or die!"
Do not despise or run down any preacher.  Do not exalt anyone above the rest lest you hurt both him and the cause of God.
Do not give even a single thought of separating from your brethren, whether their opinions agree with yours or not.  Just because someone does not agree with everything you say does not mean they are sinning.  Nor is this or that opinion essential to the work of God.  Be patient with those who disagree with you. (pp. 258-261)
Love is patient; love is kind.  (1 Corinthians 13:4)
 Religious pride is perhaps the worst.  Doing seemingly "good" things with a continual eye toward oneself and other people's reactions quickly destroys whatever good may come from the action.  Even worse, it drives people away from the cause or the God that you claim to serve.  As with the Jews Paul had to deal with: "The name of God is being blasphemed among the Gentiles because of you."  (Romans 2:24)

Because of the stench of such pride, I have found it tempting to join the many who have ejected all religiosity from their lives.  I have sought to follow God in a purely "spiritual" manner, which seems to include no "religion."  Of course, no such "purity" exists.  Since I am embodied, I need to serve God through this body as well as in a social context.  I cannot somehow shake them off except by some sort of denial.  If I reject one form of religion, I will quickly put on another, even if its of my own making.

Even worse, I have thought that the answer to religious pride was to "not worry" too much about my sins.  Somehow in my fear of being prideful, I thought that "not worrying" about certain sins might keep me humble.  I think the reasoning would go something like this:  Jesus came to die for my sins so that I wouldn't have to try to deal with them, since I can't.  Trying to overcome sin in my life is to deny that Jesus' death is sufficient to cover my sins.  Since, of course, we cannot just let sin spin out of control, there are limits to what is allowed and what is not if I say I'm "trying my best."  This leads to all sorts of hypocrisy and confusion.

The best understanding of sin is that it comes from pride.  Sin does not lead to humility, but to arrogance and self-centeredness.  Fundamentally, the best way to fight sin, then, is through humility.  Wesley's suggestions are focused on religious pride and the humility that will defeat it.  Pride of any sort cannot be fought head-on, which is why Wesley's suggestions are not ones in which I learn to despise myself (also a form of pride because of its self-centeredness) so much as see myself correctly.  Pride inflates my view of myself until I am my own god or at least all I am paying attention to.  Humility deflates my self-importance until I can serve the true God.

The response to pride is not "I'm just a miserable sinner!", but "I am a recovering sinner living daily by God's grace" and "God has plans for me into eternity."  Pride leads to sin.  Humility leads to God.  Humility is developed through submitting to what comes my way as God's plan for my salvation, knowing that he is sufficient to deliver and comfort me in pain, and happy and rejoicing with what goes well.  Humility is the practice of living by grace and in the Spirit rather than by "making it work" and relying on my status and abilities apart for God (the flesh).

Compassion as a sub-category of religion suffers from the same difficulties.  Pride makes compassion a stench through pretended self-righteousness, run-away enthusiasm, departing from the Scriptures, and a sense that philanthropy excuses me from the love of those near to me.  The only way to avoid such degradation is through the humility of living in God's grace.  I mean learning how to rely on God's grace and the power of his Spirit more than on my own abilities and talents.  Only then can the "widow's mite" become far more worthy and powerful than the seemingly large sums that others put in for their own glory.

Lord, I am moved to open my arms to your grace.  Your forgiveness extends far out beyond relieving my guilt.  Your forgiveness is a wave that carries me into righteousness and obedience.  Such grace is what I need to put my pride to death.  I want to do so by learning to rely on you showing up in my many times of need.  Teach me the expectation of your grace and grow my distrust of pride.  Let this lesson deepen my love for you and for others in my life.  Amen.


I think I see a a new way of practicing my "religion."  These things are meant to teach me patience and eager expectation of God's grace.  I can see why I need not "try so hard" at them, but let them assist me through trials.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Compassion and Giving

Devotional Classics, Elizabeth O'Connor, Excerpts from Letters to Scattered Pilgrims
We covenant with Christ and one another to give proportionately beginning with a tithe of our incomes.
Proportionate giving has kept us from mistaking our churchgoing for Christianity, and from looking at our neighbor to see what we should be doing.
It was not that our souls were so quickly converted, but that we sensed that something important was going on, and we wanted to be a part of it.  We had been captured by a man's vision of what community might do if it really cared about the oppressed and the suffering.
In a recent sermon on money Gordon [Cosby] said as forcefully as ever that to give away money is to win a victory over the dark powers that oppress us.  He talked about reclaiming for ourselves the energy with which we have endowed money.
Despite our corporate style and our exposure to the issues that are raised around the subject of money, we know  that we have not gained much "downward mobility."  While we have succeeded in stabilizing our standard of living, most of us cling to what we have known.  Though the budgets of our faith communities are large by traditional standards, we are fully aware that they represent only a fraction of the potential giving of the congregation.
Coming to know some of our suffering sisters and brothers in the Third World and in the ghettos of Washington has made all the difference in the way we view the earth.  The unemployment statistics are made up of people that we know.
Through we along with millions of other churchgoers are saying that Jesus saves, we ask ourselves if we are not in practice acting as though it were money that saves.
Do we believe that money and possessions have away of coming between people who want to be in community with each other?  Do we really believe that every life has resources more priceless that gold, and that our hearts, minds, and labor are adequate for any task?  What is the world is right and there are things that only money can buy, gifts of the spirit that only money can unlock, and blocks that only money can push aside?  (pp. 251-255)
You cannot serve both God and money.  (Matthew 6:24)
In the ways of money, I usually feel I am on the foothills of great mountains.  I glimpse the heights, but they seem so far off.  I give, but not with freedom and abandon.  I sweat out the times when money is tight and easily rejoice when we have a little extra to spend, showing that my viewpoint is still set much lower than it will be.  I have much climbing to do, and with faith and hope, much greater sights to see.

It is encouraging and discouraging at the same time to see people who have come a long way compared to "traditional standards" and yet still find there is much higher to go.  It is encouraging to know that my struggles and questions are not merely from my immaturity in this matter, but from the pervasive and powerful influence of money on people's lives.  It is discouraging because although there is a certain "stabilizing [in my] standard of living" I can anticipate, there is an uphill climb to let go of money and other temporary items and walk with Jesus in "downward mobility."

O'Connor puts before me the barrier that money and possessions are to community.  Money often works against sharing, relating, giving, and creating.  An interesting picture of this is the use of gift cards instead of gifts.  It is as if the most important part of a gift is what a person wants.  A gift card makes gift giving more impersonal, self-centered, and ritualistic.  It removes much of the warmth that other gifts could supply.

Money insulates me from other people.  I but things for myself instead of asking and sharing with others.  Money insulates me from life.  Instead of learning and building, I pay and try to manage.  Money insulates me from pain and suffering.  Instead of walking with those who suffer, I try to make them better with money.

Not that money is bad in itself.  It can do great good.  Because of my tendency to look to my own status and abilities apart from God (the flesh) to accomplish what I want, money often plays right into the hands of greed, fear, and worry.  In this sense, it is an oppressing power that I can become increasingly free from through generous giving.  There are vast resources of energy stored and wasted on money-making and gathering that I might tap into if I could just let go.

O'Connor gives some hints for such freedom.  First, there is discipline.  For my own good and the good of those around me, "proportionate" giving is a powerful tool.  It is not righteousness.  It is not something that will set me higher than others or give me greater favor with God.  It is a wisdom for living with God in his kingdom now and forever.  It is simply the guide for right investment of my money: rich toward God.

Along with such a discipline, perhaps even prior to it, a vision of being a part of "something really important" is essential.  The widow gave her last cent to the temple because of a vision of God's greatness, his goodness, and his generosity.  Such giving will bring about much greater things that larger gifts of money that had no hope, faith, or vision with them.  Giving money must be accompanied by a "given" life, or as Paul puts it in Romans 12:1, a "living sacrifice."  The vision of "something greater" is that of King Jesus and his kingdom in these days and into all eternity.

Also, the investment of money comes from really caring about the oppressed and the suffering.  Really, it is fundamentally why money has been entrusted to me.  The great vision of God is that all his children might be cared for, just as I would desire it for my own.  Coming to know those who suffer and are oppressed instills a greater sense of responsibility when I work with my money.  Granted, such a focus can become a mere guilt-trip and even become near-sighted enough to see money as the primary gift I am to give.

To keep such  things as guilt and mere social justice from warping compassion, I need to keep the "inward" journey balanced with the "outward" journey, as O'Connor's Church of the Saviour sought to do.  I must not mistake giving money as compassion any more than churchgoing is real Christianity.  Insightfully, she says I must avoid the practice of "looking at our neighbor to see what we should be doing."  To some degree, it is okay for me to be on the foothills of giving.

Lord, keep my eyes on the oppressed and suffering, my hand ever ready to give up and hand over my things, and most of all, my heart on that "something more important": you, your kingdom, your hope for a loving family in the likeness of Jesus.  Money is a "small thing" in your eyes, but it can be big enough to keep me from you.  Free me from its oppression today.  My hands are open before you.  Take what you will and leave me with you, Father.  Amen.


I want to deepen my vision of that loving community and family that the Lord longs for.  I want to seek this kingdom not as a dream or a project, but as a reality I have yet to see and encounter.  The kingdom is here and has so much more growing to do in God's time and by his power.  I will seek this kingdom through learning how to give more freely and with more abandon.  I believe I will discover that deeper community on the way.